I
have not been in a good mood recently, for I have been confused by some
annoyance.
For
one, when I was in the senior high, I didn’t contemplate much, and just want to
be a staff in the bank. At that time, I clearly knew what I want to do after I
enter the society. But now, as I enter the university, being a student of
department of foreign language and literature, and I gradually get suspected
about the future. “Can I really get a job in a bank on the condition that I am
a student of department of foreign language and literature?”, ”And how about
being an interpreter? Or being a school teacher?” Seeing many of my classmates
are very sure about what they want to do in the future, I get more and more
panicked.
Recently I read a book, and it mention about an idea that we should do what we really want to do even if the thing does not fit the tradition’s expectation. I agree with the idea, but I think that it is really difficult to carry out. Take myself for example, my greatest dream is to travel around the world, and sometimes a thought would flash through my mind: If the thing I desperately want to do is to travel, why now I have to study in the university? But studying is what my parents expect me to do, how can I be selfish, and just do what I really want to do and against my parents’ expectation? Now I was really confused, like Hamlet in the play contemplating about “To be or not to be?”
Recently I read a book, and it mention about an idea that we should do what we really want to do even if the thing does not fit the tradition’s expectation. I agree with the idea, but I think that it is really difficult to carry out. Take myself for example, my greatest dream is to travel around the world, and sometimes a thought would flash through my mind: If the thing I desperately want to do is to travel, why now I have to study in the university? But studying is what my parents expect me to do, how can I be selfish, and just do what I really want to do and against my parents’ expectation? Now I was really confused, like Hamlet in the play contemplating about “To be or not to be?”
Another affair confused me is that as I moved to Taichung for studying, I
have less and less contact with two of my best friends. And recently they have
been arranging a plan to travel around Taiwan by bicycle which I fail to
participate in due to my parents’ opposition. I am afraid that the distance
between us, not only the actual one but also the spiritual one will gradually
flush down the friendship between us.
I
am really sentimental recently, but I will not feel frustrated easily because
of all of these, since I know this is the necessary process of growing up, and I
believe I will conquer them very soon.
I would like to talk to you about this issue if you have time:)
回覆刪除I think my experience can help you a lot,since I've got exactly the same problem as yours before.
This is really a hard question, and it cost almost lifelong time for you to think about it.
Even now, you can tell that I am quite sure about what I want to do, but I still have many concerns.
So we could have a launch meet:)
Cheer up!