I really feel so tired

I have a lot of things to be busy with in recent days. I have to prepare for the midterm exam of economics; have a large amount of homework on distinct subjects; have to preview for some subjects; have to read a book for a report; have to practice for the upcoming cheer squad competition; have the club courses to attend in; and also, have to do the housing work like doing the laundry and so on. Sometimes, I really feel so tired, even to the extent of wanting to give up the whole things- skipping the classes and the practices of the cheer squad and just do nothing. The thought will only show up when I am in desperately tiredness. I know that thought is really negative, but it is really difficult for me to look on the bright side of things when I am in great desperation. Oh… I think maybe I should learn more about the management of time and contemplate more about if I can really undertake the whole before I decide to participate in an activity lest I put myself in the condition of tiredness and desperation again.

My recent worry

     I have not been in a good mood recently, for I have been confused by some annoyance.

     For one, when I was in the senior high, I didn’t contemplate much, and just want to be a staff in the bank. At that time, I clearly knew what I want to do after I enter the society. But now, as I enter the university, being a student of department of foreign language and literature, and I gradually get suspected about the future. “Can I really get a job in a bank on the condition that I am a student of department of foreign language and literature?”, ”And how about being an interpreter? Or being a school teacher?” Seeing many of my classmates are very sure about what they want to do in the future, I get more and more panicked.
     Recently I read a book, and it mention about an idea that we should do what we really want to do even if the thing does not fit the tradition’s expectation. I agree with the idea, but I think that it is really difficult to carry out. Take myself for example, my greatest dream is to travel around the world, and sometimes a thought would flash through my mind: If the thing I desperately want to do is to travel, why now I have to study in the university? But studying is what my parents expect me to do, how can I be selfish, and just do what I really want to do and against my parents’ expectation? Now I was really confused, like Hamlet in the play contemplating about “To be or not to be?”

    Another affair confused me is that as I moved to Taichung for studying, I have less and less contact with two of my best friends. And recently they have been arranging a plan to travel around Taiwan by bicycle which I fail to participate in due to my parents’ opposition. I am afraid that the distance between us, not only the actual one but also the spiritual one will gradually flush down the friendship between us.

     I am really sentimental recently, but I will not feel frustrated easily because of all of these, since I know this is the necessary process of growing up, and I believe I will conquer them very soon.

My dream of traveling to Paris

     I was deeply appealed to a graceful picture of the Eiffel Tower full of romantic atmosphere at first glance when I was a sixth grader in the elementary school. Since then, I have been regarded Paris as a romantic city, and made up my mind to go to Paris in the future. I would not scheme my travel plan from beginning to end, since I do not want too many trivial affairs to interrupt my interest. However, a vague model has formed in my heart: I want to have a long stay about one month in Paris so as to thoroughly experience the life in Paris and then further know more about it; I would like to go Paris in summer since I prefer a warm weather; I would like to go to Paris with a companion who is amiable and able to go along with my feelings about where to go; and I hope that I can get acquainted with the people I meet in this trip, and thus got more reflections on my life.

     And now, I am waiting for the time when I accumulate enough money, and then I can go fulfilling my dream with joy.

The Differences I Detect Between High school and University

As I get into the university, except that I have to study hard, concentrate on the class, and do my homework timely, I found that there are lots of unlikeness between high school and university. And I have to spend some times to get along with those differences as soon as I can.
      First of all, I will not have abundant tests which I usually have in the high school in the college. Thus, I will have less pressure to worry about what tests I am going to take tomorrow. However, this also means that I have to learn of self-learning, know when I should study, and could not therefore stop learning for there are no tests tomorrow.

     Secondly, unlike in the high school I will have a tight school timetable arranged by the school, I have to organize my own school timetable. Thus, I have to organize the school timetable with care lest I failed to graduate due to the deficiency of credits. Besides, I may have some elastic time between two classes, when I can take a short break, and have some time to absorb the contents taught last class.
     Lastly, I have to make decisions by myself, and most important of all, be responsible to myself. Teachers will not tell me what classes Imust take, or what you have to do at your free time. All the decisions, or plans are all arranged by myself and I must be wholly responsible to my own choices.

     With all these differences I encounter in the college, though at first I feel extremely unaccustomed to them, but I firmly believe that I can deal with the differences very soon.